Sunday, March 4, 2012

Stability - fact or fiction?

Resistance to change, especially sudden change or deterioration; firmness in position.  Does stability actually exist?  I am currently of the opinion that stability is a myth, a legend, a fiction fabricated from the sadistic minds of pessimistic individuals simply to make sport of their counterparts, the optimists who would chase after the proverbial wild goose.  Then again, maybe stability exists in a more insubstantial plane.  Perhaps it is a state of mind?  Or maybe we are stable in instability?  I wonder if stability is subject to physics such as gravity - it always seems to get more stable when we are at the bottom trying to get up.  For instance, I feel as if I've been stuck in this rut for a good long while resistant to any kind of change I try to make - I feel very firm in this position.  I feel I cannot deteriorate much more, so I must be stable.  I don't know!  All I do know is that I've been learning the vast difference between stability and peace.  In such uncertain times, I've been yearning for some sense of stability, knowing where my future is headed, wondering when life will get easier.  I've been praying for so many things - a home of my own, a car that works, a suitable career for Dustin, a degree with my name on it, etc.  Even though I've had no fairy godmother sparkle out of oblivion and into my bedroom to grant my wishes, I have had an answer to my prayers.  I've been learning how even in the midst of trials, I can have, not necessarily a sense of stability, but a sense of peace - which is a lot more stable than stability.  I can have peace whenever I yoke myself with my Savior.  He can lighten my load, ease my burden, and soothe my weariness.  He can be a balm to my troubled soul, and I can find happiness even in uncertainty.  Who knows whether stability exists in this plane or not, but this I know - God is stable! so I'll just stick with Him, and all will be well :)

2 comments:

  1. I. Love. You. !!!!! and God is the best one to stick with. I can testify to that:)

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  2. Amen to this, sister. I was sitting in the Provo temple today, and I was thinking about the time that you and I went together. It seems like such a long time ago now... So much has changed since then, huh? I know you can handle anything that comes your way, especially if you just find peace in trials. You're pretty tough; you'll make it. :)

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